I should be in bed because I have to get up again soon enough, but I have musings I’d like to put down first.
After work I walked from my apartment to the NYU bookstore on the other side of Washington Square Park to return my French CDs. I did dearly want to keep them, but I needed the $75 for groceries, so as to avoid another ramen-filled week. I can always buy them again when I have the cash.
I positively love Washington Square Park, in all its eclecticism and seediness and feeling of something grand being hatched somewhere. I saw the men playing chess, I saw couples sitting in their own little worlds, I saw a group doing theatre of some kind involving a pair of horns and a matador cape on the lawn, I saw a guy playing the guitar, I saw a jazz “group” (consisting of a big doublebass and a saxophone), and I unfortunately saw a guy walking two dogs who had suddenly taken a very inappropriate liking to one another.
I walked back through after returning the CDs and stopped, crouching, to pull out the camera. The light wasn’t good, so the pictures leave much to be desired and I’m tempted not to post them . . . but, as the British say, “sod it”, I’ll post them anyhow.
The point is, in the Park I realized why I’m in New York. Something about the atmosphere here is making my non-geek side resurface. In all actuality, I never intended to study computers in college, and though it was a good fit, the rest of me was suppressed and left to wither during the last four years. I spent all my free time in high school playing instruments and reading books, and I did very little of that while I was at RPI - unless it was required for class.
It’s amazing to feel these things re-awakening in me. I want to play music again, I want to listen to classical music and dissect it, I want to discover new unheard-of bands, I want to learn how to appreciate jazz music for its technicality and not just because it sounds good.
I want to start reading again in earnest. I made a resolution this January to read 52 books this year. That’s never going to happen, but I did manage to finish the complete stories of Flannery O’Connor last spring (which, to my credit, is a very thick book) and I’ve gone through a number of them since then. I want to expand my mind and read things that make me think. I want to read more George MacDonald, Brother Lawrence, C.S. Lewis (I want to understand “Till We Have Faces” this time), John Piper, e.e. cummings. I want to train my mind to concentrate on those things again.
And most of all - I want to start writing again. The people-watching that is ubiquitous here begs to be written down. I don’t feel like I can write any more. I don’t know where to start. Incidentally, Relevant did say they’d like to see more of my work after the one they published online - which is promising and gives a much-needed kick-in-the-butt.
And I want to form friendships with people who I can sit and talk with for hours over coffee about lots of things, and hash out ideas and worldviews, and plan how to take over - er - fix the world.
I want to do these things, not so much for just my own enrichment, but because this is really what I feel God is calling me to in this time in my life. I’m realizing that this period of time is a special gift and will never return to me. When I move out of this phase of my life, I want to know it was well-spent.
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In a completely different vein, please pray for those fleeing from Hurricane Rita. This is so painful to watch - I can only imagine how horrifying it is to live.
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And now for the pictures from today. Please excuse how dark they are. Most are not great quality but they’re all I’ve got from today. I’m too tired and it’s too late for me to work on the lighting.
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